|Yoga with Ved|
|Yoga with Ved|
In my previous blog post we spoke about working with the inner energy in our meditation. Certainly working with the energy was a big shift for me. Once I began feeling the chakras and moving the energy my meditation became much more exciting.
But still there was a “problem,” – my own mind.
Whenever I sought to meditate I would work with my energy and try to quiet my mind. But it just felt impossible! Sometimes the mind would clear, like seeing the clouds part in the sky and light shining through.
There would be moments of clarity. Sometimes a bit of space and a fleeting experience of peace.
Most times there would be a parade of thoughts through my mind that I never seemed to be able to control.
It felt like I could not escape from the thinking.
It was at this point I was ripe for breakthrough number three. I needed to understand my own mental voice… the mental narrative and how to detach from it.
That is what I want to share with you in this blog post.
My Experience Of Grace
The reason I kept practicing.
It was these moments of relief that kept me on the path. My master would call it Grace. That the inner power that is guiding all of us was helping me to see the way through.
It was supporting me in learning to manage my own mind.
Those moments when the mind stopped were incredible. The thoughts would disappear and it felt like a taking cool drink of water.
I would feel something flowing into my head. That feeling would refresh me. It was one of the best feelings that I would have at the time.
It was this feeling that kept me going. I understood that the power of Grace was helping me to experience what was possible. Thankfully my master helped me to understand that is what was happening.
The Blessing Of Detachment
It was all of this that was churning within me. On one hand there was the thinking, suffering, and longing. And on the other hand there was this desire to experience something different.
Of course what I was really looking for was a higher state of consciousness. A state in which there was peace, harmony and self-management.
I distinctly remember the day when the blessing came to me.
For many weeks I had been working on just trying to calm the mind. More importantly I wanted to see the mind for what it was.
On that day I made a breakthrough. But it was not only by my own effort. I am very conscious that there was some support. The power of Grace in the Universe helped me to make this shift.